Real Shitty Day

So its coming closer and closer till i have to say goodbye to my husband. He is my rock and my clear head when everything is going wrong around me! Then i get a call this morning at 4am telling me that my mom slipped into a coma. The doctors are telling the family that it looks like about 48 hrs at max. But guess what>!>! My mom has proved them wrong time and time and time again. When will this nightmare be over? When will my time to sit back and take a deep breath and know that i can lay down my head and close my eyes and know that all the stress and everything that is expected of me will be ok? I hope it is soon because even as a strong army wife i'm not so sure that i can hold together much longer. I just want to sit down and cry and let it all out but seems that every time i let someone know that something is wrong, it seems as if they have tons going on in their own life. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm losing myself in all of this and i don't know how to make the world just stop spinning around me. I'm at a loss for words and direction with everything going on. All i know is that i have to keep it together for my kids and my husband because fear in this line of living isn't an option. I want my momma to hold me and tell me its ok! Just one more time tell me she loves me no matter what and that that she loves me infinty and beyond! It going to be ok though, i know it is, it has to be!